Kunai the Sixth: [Video/Action for Goldenrod]

[itsjustdust]

[Oddly enough, the gear is set down on the table, his goggles mostly obscuring the rest of the room where his Charmander and newly evolved Servine are off to one side having some sort of staring match. The voice that came over the line was indisputably human though, and thoughtful.]

I've been in this place for nearly a month now. A lot has happened in that month. I've met family, I've met friends, and I've realized that my life wasn't as much of a failure as everyone always liked to tell me it was back home.

My teammate, the one I died for, and yes, I died before I woke up here, very thoroughly and messily I might add, apparently changed his entire life based on a few things I said to try to be more like me. He even uses a phrase I screamed at him once as a motto I've heard. I kind of want to see what he's like without being so bitter, but that clearly won't happen unless he shows up here.

But... Everyone else forgot about me. I'm just that guy that gave my famous teammate his Sharingan, an eye for the unaware, and I'm not even known for my own name. My baby cousin, the one here, hadn't ever heard of me. That's my own fault, in some ways, I died before he was born, but did I really do nothing worth mentioning after my demise?

It was a war, and a lot of people die during wars, I know that, and I know I've made a huge difference in the world just by a final set of actions, but... I'll never see it. I'm not sure it's satisfying.

I'm afraid to ask if anyone but that teammate made it out of the war. What if no one knows? What if no one wants to say?

But I'm drifting off topic here.

What I wanted to say was that I don't think that just pokemon change from level to level. A whole different personality to go with a whole new body, right? How many people feel like that happened to them too?

So yeah, a lot of things happened since I got here, good things, bad things... but who else feels like they were changed in some permanent way just by getting here?

Comments

[audio]

[neurotoxined]

Well, as far as I'm concerned I should hope it's not permanent. For everyone's sake, not just my own.

[...someone's being a ray of sunshine, as usual.

However. You'll get a pause for a moment, followed by...well.]

Look, are you going to be okay? Because I'm not offering you hugs or anything if you aren't.

[audio]

[itsjustdust]

....Are you offering me hugs if I am?

[audio]

[neurotoxined]

I'm not offering you hugs, period.

Though I suspect you'd take them whether they're offered or not, if you are.

audio.

[flareblitz]

[ Pinged by death! Ignoring the rest of that spiel and the questions; sorry about that, he has just one focus at the moment.

Really, who better to ask about death than a dead person? ]

The dead being here. That common?

audio.

[itsjustdust]

Not incredibly as far as I've heard, but I know I'm not the only one. Why?

audio.

[flareblitz]

[ There's a bit of a pause, followed by a grunt and yet another case of (rudely) pointedly ignoring the question. Again. ]

How many?

[ video ]

[brokethecycle]

I ...can't really speak for this place because I just got here, but um. I know what you mean, I think.

[ video ]

[itsjustdust]

[Hi, now you get to see the guy who was talking as he picks up the camera.] Yeah?

[ video ]

[brokethecycle]

Sometimes when something really big happens, you have to change. It's sort of like having to make a really big decision.

[action]

[falseshore]

[Repliku has been sitting off to the side, listening to your introspection, Obito, but is waiting until you're finished to answer.]

You're more serious than usual. What brought that on?

[action]

[itsjustdust]

[He clicked off the gear before looking over at the other teen.]

I've just... Have you ever really thought about the differences that just being somewhere made to who you are?

[action]

[falseshore]

Every single day I've been here. I don't want to leave, this world gives me a purpose and an actual life that I didn't have before.

[video]

[exeggutorhead]

I think it'd be harder to find someone who hasn't changed by coming here.

[video]

[itsjustdust]

Well, there's change, then there's CHANGE. But... I guess you have a point. Just not-staying-dead is big enough to warrant it, isn't it?

[video]

[exeggutorhead]

Depends on what you do with not being dead. You did, as you've just told the entire network, but not everyone would change just from that.

But I haven't met very many people that didn't change just from being here. And the longer you stay, the more it gets to you.

[Him included, but he doesn't like talking about that so much because it still confuses the hell out of him.]

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[eagletalons]

Normally people would save this kind of talk till they have been around a little longer.

[Well, if a month is enough to bring out this kind of reaction from this kid, he wonders what an entire year would be. Hope himself has been pretty placid about the whole thing-- probably because he's made himself a niche here.]

If you've been changed just by coming here, ask yourself if it's a good thing or a bad thing. If you don't know yet, then don't strain yourself.

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[itsjustdust]

See, that's the problem. I left behind so much and I just... you know, thinking about it. A person doesn't have to be a place for a long time to realize they're not who and what they were before, do they?

[usedshooshpap]

THAT WAS SO LONG I DIDN'T BOTHER TO LISTEN TO IT ALL.
WHAT I CAN RELATE TO IS THE WHOLE CHANGING ASPECT.
HOWEVER, A LOT OF THAT CAN BE CONTRIBUTED TO THE FACT THAT I DIDN'T JUST CHANGE LOCATIONS
I ALSO CHANGED SPECIES.

[itsjustdust]

And I lost most of my abilities. That's what made me think about it, actually, initially.

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[timelymaid]

Dying is a natural part of life! I wouldn't worry too much about it. Especially when it's not something that you can't change or touch.

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[itsjustdust]

What? No no. I'm not worried about having died, I know I can't do anything about that. It's just... after. Being here.

[video]

[impulsives]

Sure is a deep question from someone who has only been here for a month.

[he's answering it anyways.]

I guess this world's kinda helped me settle down to a more dull routine after all the shit I've been through.

...

Not that dull is bad, of course.

[video]

[itsjustdust]

[The gear was picked up and turned to face a rather puzzled teenager.]

I gotta admit I find it kind of weird that people seem to think you need a long time for things to change. Where I'm from, change happens in an instant, be it good or bad. People who fight it usually don't end up leading happy lives.

voice;

[firepledge]

[ so he sees that conversation with Mikoto waaaay up there, amused... ]

Do you regret it?

voice;

[itsjustdust]

[He would soooo not know who you meant if you used the name Mikoto at him.]

It? Dying? Not the dying itself, but the missed chances? Everyone regrets those, don't they?